- [Sunday, October 7, 2001] - [12:03 a.m.] - [Tee Vee] Wow, one can spent almost 50% of his/her life watching t.v. I just realised that. I awfuly watched alot of tv today almost like 12 hours. Lets see, i saw samurai x, card captor sakura(yeah i know what i saw), Then i sorta stoned around abit, then i went to sleep at bout 1 then woke up watced tv again, and stoned, and watched grounded for life + back to the future. Ops... i guess i din't watched as much as i think but it sure do feels like it. Heh played resident evil again, hrmm i think i did better this time, i dunno cuz i skiped the results and watched grounded for life, then sis mischeviously took over! Well i sure is alot easier this time, and i sorta limit my "external resources" this time. Ok Ok.... i cheat alil, SO?...sue me already... the next time, i will not cheat. Urm kinda boring, in the noon, played worms with yong and james, sigh got trased by both of them. Hrmm i SUCK!!! i really dunno what the fuck is wrong with me, i just can't concentrate. I wonder what i bothering my mind...... its so weird, i feel like i...urm... am missing somthing in my life, each time i just feel like its empty.... arhs.. am i turning into a freak???GOD knows....btw what the heck, i dun believe in god. Mood:confused

- [Friday, October 5, 2001] - [11:04 p.m.] - [Return Of The Living Dead!!!!] Arhs.... life still is the same, nothing changes so far. Wke up kinda early and had breakfast with ma and dad in NTS. Had that one ton mee (wan tan mee). Was quite full till bout 6-7, waned to whack some nasi lemak, but budget told me not to. After 3 years in inti, this is the first time i saw girls playing sport at the basketball court, actively. WOW! its was like ....WOW! Aha... mon vs stella and tricsy, in cs today. Mon lost really badly about 30-60. Aahaha one vs 2 person, although gals, but they are one heck of a team, really crazy match. In the end mon had to spend both of them lunch. Ahahahahha. No footie today, it was kinda sad cuz i think inti football is dying. Its been like 2 years since they have won any matches. Well i really had high hopes for them, but with management like dat, i doubt it will ever suceed in anything. CS 1.3 is kinda different form the old version, i think, cuz i can't seem to get my head shots. BTW played start craft today, been so long. Ahahah really had fun cuz me n seng keat tarpau 3 coms... i still remember last time i can take 8 just like dat. Mood:Confused.

- [Thursday, October 4, 2001] - [04:13 p.m.] - [Was there any feelings..............] Its been 2 days since i last wrote here, 2 days normal way of life. After 2 days i must have tons to tell, yet i had none. After two days, one must ahve been through alot, but not as much as well. Why am i so empty? i always asked my self why. Every man has his own tale, his own happy times, and sad times, but where is mine? Am i part of this world? or am i just a nobody? Sigh, my mind now is so filled with questions. Its 4 pm, and why am i sitting in front of a computer? Rather i should be doing more with the life that is enpowered to me. Though i know people will be reading this, but what am i to do but to at least to dig deep into me and rip this feeling out of me. Was there any feelings, Or just acts of puppets, Without love, without feelings, like a drama without a meaning, Was there any feelings, my soul is broken, and it needs healing, my life is being taken, and it needs blessing, why do feelings causes me so much pain, so much pain Was there any feelings, Or is it just a painting, taken the color for love, as it was just a giving, Was there any feelings, Was there any feelings, that let my tears rolling, that let my heart went beeling, Was there any feelings, By ezdz

- [Monday, October 1, 2001] - [09:41 p.m.] - [i hate Books!!!!!] arhs!!, i hate books... i hate college.... i hate my life!!!! I could have graduated like 2 years ago.... but nOOooooo, i wanna enjoy my fucking life! now i really regret it! FUCK THE WORLD!!!sigh... sorry for my outrage. i really dunno what the fuck is up, i am so sick and tired of books already. But yet i'm not ready to work... Yesterday i did not log in cuz i so fucking bz doing my assignment, the whole day. I just sat infront of the computer for like 6-7 hours. But i did manage to catch the anchor woman show. I just love jap chiqs, hey are so ..erm ..well i dunno how to say but i love jap chicks! Sigh... i wish can write more in here but just that it is so publicized, i got so much to tell yet i can write so lil', i am really going through depression, and i just hope that i will not go out shooting ppl like ppl in US. Another 2 months, and i'm out of college, what am i to do then,a new frontier, a new life....... till then i guess i just have to stay shit with this one. Added Some pictures about my life here..... check out the menu for link Topic Of the Day: How deep is my love? how high is my expectation? how wide is my experince? Mood:Depressed!!!!!{=o(

- [Saturday, September 29, 2001] - [11:53 p.m.] - [Bored Day part 2] Arhssss....today is so boring... woke up bout 7 am, but insisted to lay till 9 before i willing to get up. My nephews is here!!!!! NOoOOOooo~. He is 5, but he makes satan look like a wuss if you ask me. He is the origin of devil him self!. He came into my room and drag my guitar out and start banging his lil fingers on the strings!!!! NOOoOOOo.. then he was like punching my keyboards....i wish i have locked the door last nite!!! Then he followed mom out, peace at at last...I played Resident evil the whole day, and i only got a miserable d ranking for completing in 4 hours with 13 saves, shit! Now i have to replay that shit to access the secret characters! MOTHER FUCKER@@@!!!! Then after that i played cs, hrmm it is really easy to kill bots no matter now difficult u set them to be! i need some real man to be my target practice. Bout 6 pm HE came back..nOooooo... i locked my self in the room for the rest of the day till now. I even formatted my C: and reinstall everything.. ahahaha guess i wan kinda bored. Mood: tired like fuck

- [Saturday, September 29, 2001] - [12:16 a.m.] - [Kunter Strike] Today i played alot of cs, in the morning when i just arrived collge, i went to silver surfer to play some CS, i met malcolm there, played for like 2 hours. I sm still very shitty, i just could not aim properly, although i know where to aim, but i can seem to just control my self to use the cursor. It is really sad. My frags and death are about the same, like 20-19 or some times 20-25. This shows that i need more practice, but i guess playing with bots will never be the same as human players. THen in the noon, i saw patrick and yong. Yong skipped class today because he wanted to go out with patrick. Then me and CC went to the management class, it was kinda boring so i started scibbling on the table again. SIgh,...[=op, a habit that will never change. Well i did play with CC's rubber, i erased the scribbles with his eraser till it went round...eheheh. Then i met ian in front of block a, we talked for a while and then he invited me to play CS in X gate. Yu san came along and after that phang too came. Again, my game isn't that well, sigh i really d not know what up with me. Guess i'm getting old? Even i knew that that certain spot is hazard, but still i just rush in. Kinda dumb if u ask me. There were this kid sittingnext to me makes a whole lotsa noise, ahaha i feel like giving him a smack and ask him to shut the hell up. After the game, i an fetched yu san, me and phang back. It was raining, we walked all the way from x gate to lotus. Then ian borrowed Yu sans umbrella to go home and take the car. AhahHA finally i know where yu san stays! now i know what to dowhen i am bored.....muahahah *grins* lotsa evil plan building up......*evil smirk* well i think i stay kinda close to her cuz we were like only 5 minutes apart. Now i know! ArhHHHhhhHHssssss, this is frustrating! WHen i reach home, i continued my Resident Evil 2 campaign, but after i was like 75% off the game, the cd have some bad sectors!!!! now i can't continue my game!!! i wanna cry!!!!!!!! I really if anyone out there here me, and if you have resident evil 2 cd, please borrow me!!!!!wAAaAAA~~~~ {=~o( Mood:Dreadful, all the parctice, my CS still sucks

- [Thursday, September 27, 2001] - [11:24 p.m.] - [Dead Living!!!!] Today i have no class, thus i stayed at home the whole day. Saw MJ on tv today, well his new albulm "yuo rock my world" is not that great after all, and his dance moves looks al the same..Went on line for almost an hour after that. In the noon, mostly i played worms and watched tv. I did went online again, but not for long. Bout 4 pm, i was like playing around with some softwares and i discovered this software which you can play PSX cd's on pc!!!! cool!!!!, so i remembered i had this Resident Evil 2 ps-cd with still me. So the quest of discovery begins! Messed around with the software for like 30 minutes to get used to it and how the heck it functions. After dat i loaded the R.E 2 cd in and POW! Leon starts kicking ass...urm i mean dead asses again! Well i finished the game before, but whne one is bored, he can play the game again. I also kinda forgot how to play that game liow. Although the graphics kinda sucks, but whatthe heck, i am an easily fulfilled guy [=op Wow!!, i am really happy that so many ppl had visited my pitas. And thanks for the compliments, well i think what i did isn't all that great, well i think thier pitas is great too. SO from here i just wanna thanks those of you that have sgned my guest book, and take your time to visit my blog. [=o) Mood:Dizzy, 3 hrs of R.E 2 makes me sick

- [Wednesday, September 26, 2001] - [10:36 p.m.] - ["Wan San"ny day] Heh, i think i made a record by travelling from zero to hero in less than and hour! Today i woke up late again, it is so not me.. lat time when i wants to wake uo at a certain time, i WAKES up! now, sigh...{=o(, i can never seem to manage time anymore. But least i am not late for class, infact i was 15 minutes early, i was so lucky, i waited for like 10 minutes for the first bus, and like 30 seconds for the second. There were no jam on the way at 11 plus. I was so suprised. Heh in college i went minuming and makaning with ian, james, wan san and yong. We talk for like more than 2 hours there. Been a long time since i did dat. I makan'ed Char Kueh Tiow, ahahah and not forgeting disturbing the poor kueh tiow lady. I sometimes feel that i a very mean guy. We talked alot of crack this afternoon, mostly about worms...ahaha i just can never get over it.Bout 4 plus me and meow took a bus home. We wanted to check out the compaq warehouse sales, but in the end we were too lazy to move so we went home instead. When i reached home, i watched the Animal. Kinda cool show, ahahha i like the part Merv checked out the lady in white dress and end up humping the mail box. Oh yeah and also the part where he pissed and places to mark his terertory..ahahahah. After dat i played some worms. Then i watched poltergeist. This version has computer graphics added to it. Well it wasn't as scary as it used to be, but what the heck, ah like 10 years old, even barney are scary. Mood: In between horrified and hilarious. I guess i dunno how i am feeling right now

- [Tuesday, September 25, 2001] - [10:56 p.m.] - [Initial D] Watched Initial D third stage today. It was damn cool~! }=op. Tueno raced with emperor's Lan Evo 3 at emperor's ground. LanEvo 3 lets tueno startes first and he chases him from behind. The starting is kinda normal,but towards the end, the LanEvo must take lead on the final bridge or he will lose! He also predicted that Tueno will not speed on the last curving, but he did and won. Then he raced wit a blue MR2 (forgot the name) This MR2 is one of Tueno's father's opponent son. Both raced in the same location, emperors home. As the curvings in that hill has no divider, the MR2 cut through the divider to take lead..Tueno won because some leaves had cause MR2 to "sin q". Well nothing much after that but tueno got back with his GF, and all of them graduated from high skool! Red suns is gonna recruit Tueno to join them and challenge all the racers in Japan! In college i met up with my counseller, she had little to say about my project. Sigh... I was hoping she could show me the light to my project but alas...none. After that i saw chee kean in college canteen. Its been quite some time since i hang out with him. He is kinda cool to hng out with cuz he has no gossip, scandals or what so ever to worry. I really enjoy hanging out with him. We played cs for about an hour, as usual i sucked in it... but the version 1.3 kinda sucked cuz it was laggy and the guns kinda changed its firing rate and recoil.sigh. Then we played basket ball. Wow, its been some time since i played b.ball. Heh, altough i still sucks in shooting, but i was pretty ok with passes, i made some radical passes today...i impressed my self seriously. Never knew i had it in me. Hah... i changed my desktop and my icq skin today. I really like what i did in here so i put it in my desk to and icq skin as well. Mood:CheekY {^o^}