Bah, i used to dig excitement, u know, like boring housewives with nothing else to do kinda excitement. The slightest of it, will got me all worked up. Can't survive a single day, without one.

But things really went in contrast for me, well for the past month. Its weird of me, seriously i am not one who changes just because, and i've heard it a million, probably more,.."you'll change when u meet some one special in your life". My first response will be.. that whole fucking bullshit, with extra overnight rotten sambal belacan on it.

I really ate my words this time...fuck eating, got shoved in me straight down and out through my mouuth, into my stomach and exitted through ass, in a single motion.

Having the feeling of ur organs is being crushed, couldn't focus you mind with simple 1+1=8989766, really sucks, but heck, the occasional rainbows in the rain, the warm air breezes through you, and the blankets of warm sun rays makes everything worth it.

I LOVE U...=)

Most of the time,well mostly i think, i mean, i tried to be nice to everyone,be accommodating, and be at my friendliest state of mind. Its not like beneath me, i am devising a evil plan to ruin this person's life or make a profit of of them, but i just doesn't show my true self.

So am i a politician? mind you, we are not talking bout that DAP,BN,Gerakan bullshit. Which i don't give 2 flying fucks for. In this content, we are refering to being nice just because.

Have you come across with ppl that is nice to you but u just couldn't like him?(not gay). I mean u just hate him because you do, for no reason. Yet, u have to show a smile when ever u cross path.

Have you ever wanted to beat up a guy when u just met him for the 1st time even before u 2 talked? Weird isn't it. but u again have to put on a smile, so u'll be a nice guy

Hahaha i think i am pretty much a politician. But since now i'm in my blog, lets ditch this politician side of me and get straight down nasty.

I mean some ppl is just full of themselves, with a couple of friends backing up, they'll think the own the world, everything revolves around them, well suck balls. The start to single out ppl and say they are lame, which matter of fact they think they are just too cool for others. It really makes me laugh. C'mon, i'm not saying u ppl not happening, but hey...if u need a check list on whats cool, it already thrown you off the category. =)realise..

No entry.. just pics =).. Lazy to type ady..


















The above 4 pics represent P.L.U.R (Peace,Love,Unity,Respect) btw..but tek made it P.BC.U.R (Peace,BaChang,Unity,Respect).

Why do ppl, especially in large groups, likes to categorize. I, for one dislikes politics. I hate it when ppl are divided into fractions. I just have to say it. Also does it really matter who u hang out with? Who is cooler, who is not? What makes a person cool? who decides who is being cool, and what are the guidelines of being cool.

I have never been one of the cool guys (I sounded like i am 15-16..fucked). Tho in my ealier days in school, all i wanted is fit in.. to be one of the more popular ones. Haha.. to think back, it was really silly of me.
But now, in the present me.. i just wanna be me, =), just wanna get along wit everyone. well at least i try to. Some might think i am a hypocrite, sometimes i do too. Well i guess i am not perfect, in many ways. The truth, i just wanna be nice to everyone,..well at least everyone that deserves to be nice at.

I know everyone wants to fit in somehow, to have a sense of belonging, and the lenght some goes to just be that. I know, i been there, and i regretted it..very. It almost ruin the person i am, my future, and ppl around me.

Give everyone a chance..don't shut them down just becuz they don't fit in. (unless they are uncosiderate bastards) =P

Yeah, I know.. the malacca rave ended ions ago, and here i am posting it up now...


The real Kick Off Party Venue


Drunk Me -_-


Drunk Them


fiddy sen wanna-be


Groupies


Groupies-II "The Return of the groupies"

overall the party was more insane in the bungalow compared to the actual venue. Glad i was there, and glad i has such friends.. I like being me =).


On the other note..gene's handywork...

i added wasabi so i wouldn't feel lonely...hehe

24 hrs since i came back from melacca..Still stonned, still in party mode, still can hear the loud ass bass hammering my brains. I suffer the "POST RAVE" symptoms.

Too tired to post about the rave now.. but wanna fucking rant!!!

I reach KL about 7 yesterday, got a called from singapore to request that i be in the office at 8pm. -__- fucked..And thus i worked from 9 till 10 am today. Got home and fainted ...Not forgetting the 60 minutes of slept i had on the day before..

From friday to monday i have a total of 12 hrs of proper ZzzZZ..

Some please kill me

Heh, office was a bore yesterday. So i took Paco DVD collection up to the office and has a movie fiesta. Manage to catch 2,3 movies. But this 1 movie really caught my attention. It presents us the life of a 13 year old teenager. Not the typical gilry movies (altho starred by one) but the threats and problems.

Started of with just shop-lifting, she went into drugs, and all sorts of crap. It hink its really educational, and parents should let thier children watch this. Being thats, that, i got a confession the day before. I never thought in my life time, a women would come up to me and say she likes me..a girl confession to a guy is just hot! I mean.. i am glad and happy all, haha i still have a lil charm or whatever left in me, just that she is the "untouchable" type. Go figure whats untouchable. We chatted on msn for like 2-3 hrs.. talking all sorts of shit, then suddenly ....

She: hey actually i used to like u.
Me. ahaha ur not serious right
S:why not?
Me:because ******* ******* ***
S:I know, but thats last time
M:now?
S:=) maybe

I was stunned..happy but stunned. To tell the truth, i am no brad pitt, not cute,not tall,not even rich. Just an average joe..so this is a big lead in my life. So how attractive am i? From a scale from 1 to 10. where 1 is fly content and 10 is sizling hawt! So i decided to do one of em quizzes

Mediocre What the hell? You scored 75!

Alright, you answered fairly well. This will probably be where the majority of people taking this test land. It means you have a decent amount of both physcial attributes as well as social attributes that are postive. Be proud of yourself. YOU'RE AVERAGE! YEAAAAAHHHH!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 9% on attractivity

Link: The Are You Attractive Test written by RayTreib on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

I SUCKED!!!!!!!T___T

Yum ja with Paco and WW yesterday. Was dead sleepy but still manage to yum ja and play dota till 3 am. Now half brain dead. I sleeps, but somehow not rested, just weird. Anyone know whats wrong with me? oh yeah i forgot.. i don't accept comments..why.. cuz its my site ^_^.

Anyway back to the topic, Paco seems to like this classmate of his very much. But S(lets call her "S") has a bf already. But Paco think S might have a lil feeling for him too. So yesterday he went out with his classmates. He wanted to confess his feelings for her, but when they met, she doesn't seems to happy. Paco said she was not happy becuz they didn't go ice skating..0.o...WTF??..Mebbe it could be this other girl that sticks to paco alot that makes S jealous la. which i don't know. After sing-k Paco sms'ed me, asking how la. I keep telling him to confess to her.. and show S how paco cared for her. The idiot didn't do much, and only hinted his love for her. Idiot la him. He hinted but S only changes the subject every time he brings it up.Not to be bad or what.. i think she likes paco but not enough to leave her current bf lor.Just have to wait n see what happens la

Ok..I didn't had a happening weekend.. thus leads me wondering off to never never land. Yes i think i can be quite imaginative..like J.D in scrubs..yes ..i am that imaginative..with visualizations n all.

1st thing that got me thinking..the last blog's dilemma, marriage. I wonder how many ppl i know, mind me, the same age as me, has gotten married. So far the ones i know (known), not a single one, so that leaves me in pretty good spot..which mean i am not left out wort. From there also got me thinking.. I was once in co-ed skool also...i wonder whats lee-ann, Cheryl, and Mindy (or was it Cindy) is doing now..the 3 person i had my crush when my pubetry hasn't even hit me..

2nd thing that started wandering off was..i thinki am born evil..it doesn't show very much, (although some times i can be mean) but what i did was completely unreasonable for. This hell spawn strikes only when he saw a definate opportunity. Always patiently waiting, like one of em sleeping terrorist. Ok la.. i am exaggerating la... but still i am unforgiveable. This was not the first time, i had altered a completely "not-related-never-seen-never-met" guy's friendster. I know i am evil. Its not like i gets off doing such a thing. I don't feel anything, No happiness, no joy, no whatsoever. Its just that ppl should learn to LOG-OFF or LOG-OUT when they use the internet cafe pc. He was lucky it was just a friendster...what it it was his bank acct? Manier times, i seen ppl didn't log off thier msn, icq,friendster,hotmail...and so on ..so forth. What if i am a serial killer..and i used ur msn to lure one of ur fren out to meet me and had he/she killed? have you ever thought of that? Ur just lucky i did some pranks. Well at least i am not like paco..asking weird weird questions. I think he is weird anyway..=P

The last thing was..what if i did't completed my studies. What would i be doing now. I'll prolly be a call-man (u know, em tow trucks assistants, with 5000hp wiras). As i was watching my car getting washed after 1month, and "WASH-ME" written over the 1inch thick dirt on my hood..i've decided to sent it for a wash. While day dreaming, watching the cloud drift, i heard a familiar voice called out my name. There he was, eric..my ex tailo..(most of em who know me would have guess i was in the triads before). He greeted me, asked me what i am up to, and we did catch up some lost time. I found out he is a call-man now, and he is making pretty alot of em agongs. And besides that..he had an super civic,...even with one of those radio thingy..when u speak to it..it comes out through the loud speaker. U know.. like the police ask u to stop kinda thingy. It was funny..Ididn't ask him for a ride.. cuz Alan..was in the car. Alan<-mortal enemy (tried to slap me with a slipper) take note *tried*.

With those said..somehow i am still glad who i am now..=). Guess i did choose a better path.